Lisa C Writes

Things went well at the visit. I'm going back today to have an ultrasound done. They will be checking to see if they can get a more accurate size and due date. I'm a little nervous because I've been having some lite cramping and spoting, although I know that's normal in the beginning, it could also mean other things as well. I've been there too. My prayer is that His will be done. Don't start worrying girl. That's what I've been telling myself lately. Still don't know where we are going to be moving to. We are narrowing it down though. I know we'll know by the end of this week, have to. It's truly amazing how calm I really am. In any momment I could be pulling my hair out but what good would that do. My children don't need that, they need me to be whole. It's funny because last year I was telling D. that 2006 is going to be our best year yet and you know what? I still believe that. Our situation can turn in a momment. I know it can. ...

I'm just sitting here on this beautiful Sunday relaxing and listening to Angie in the background sing "my sunshine has come", love this song. It set's a melow mode. Things are moving along with packing up the house. It's much easier than I expected. It helps being pretty organized. I've finally gotten over the shock of being pregnant. There's no turning back, it's for real. I'm excited and so are the kids, they can't wait. I over heard them talking this morning about what they are going to teach the new baby. Tanisha said she'll teach them how to love. David said he'll teach them to do tricks, he loves flipping around and doing tricks. Gabrielle said she'll teach them not to throw things and listen to mommy and daddy. I just smiled, they didn't know I was listening. I'm happy they are happy. My first appointment is tomorrow morning. I love the doctors I've chosen to deliver our babies. They deliver at NorthSide Hospital ...

I don't know where to begin......well here it goes I'm having a BABY! Yup, a baby. I just found out on Tuesday. A baby, what is really going on. We didn't plan this one. This was supposed to happen next year or the year after. At least that's what we thought. You would think with all that's going on now, with such uncertainty of our journey before us that a baby just wouldn't fit. Well He's got other plans, apparently, going on right now. A baby, WOW! A blessing, YES!

This weekend I took some time for myself to go to the library to be still and write my heart out, in my personal journal. There is nothing like it. I still have the need to write with my pen. I like having an online journal, but there's nothing like the pen. I had a wonderful time to myself as usual. It was peaceful and I got alot accomplished. There is so much going on right now, the important thing is for us not to miss the lessons being taught at this time. I know they're precious. I'm encouraged by it. We have decided to take a two week break from school. I love the flexibility with homeschooling. This week we will do lots of reading and visiting the library to get new books. Maybe some spelling, and working on their leapfrogs. Next week, it will be "free" learning week. Mainly them learning about what they want to learn about. I wish I got to experience this when I was younger, it's amazing what your kids will teach you during this time. They get to pick ...

I'm looking around my house and it's now hitting me that we won't be here in a couple of weeks. It's not the fact that we are leaving that's got me a little nervous, it's the not knowing where we're going. I know it may sound strange not knowing as yet, but it is what it is. I know we'll be alright. There are boxes and cluter everywhere. I'm getting excited. Watching the kids pitch in and do their share brings a smile to my face. They are excited too. Today they went through their toys to see what they could give away (freecycle) and what they would keep. They had a blast. Tomorrow there's more packing to be done, but we'll take a break to go to the library, something they enjoy doing. I'm looking forward to this next phase of my life, of our lives.

Life is a journey that sometimes leads us through rough places...But the walk is so much easier when we travel beside one another. That way we can reach out and find help when we need someone to lean on. It doesn't matter whose turn it might be or how much time it will take until the path becomes smooth again. All that does matter is that we're there for each other and that we'll keep walking side by side wherever the road may lead us... And I want you to know I'm at your side right now. I just had to share this. These are the words taken from a card that D. gave to me last week. I needed it. This place where we are right now is tough. It's like swimming against the current. When I read the card peace came over me. D. tells me if I just keep rowing on my side and he on his we'll eventually see land. I said to him "I will rest in that".  

Organizing is underway. We have to get this place organized first before we can move. It's amazing how much stuff a family could collect over time. Today is Freecycle day. I love it. Freecycle is a yahoo group that you can post the things you don't want anymore. That way your "trash can be another man's treasure". You know the sayin'. To find a Freecycle group in your local area go to Freecycle.org. I think it's a great way to clean out your house and have someone pick it up right there. You don't have to lug it to a dumpster. I just put it out front on my bench with their name on it and they'll pick it up. I don't even have to be here when they come. I've met some really nice ladies as well!!

A must see!! Tyler Perry at his best. We went to see this movie at the drive-in on Friday night and had so much fun. We laughed the whole way through. This man is hilarious. His story is inspiring. To come from literally nothing to where he is today has got to be the best feeling in the world. That just goes to show us that he had 'everything' already. If you haven't seen this movie yet I promise you, you won't be wasting your time. Tyler takin' it back. Yes, yes, yes, family values are still improtant. His message hits home. We need more of this. Love, respect, unity, dreams, self-respect, self-acceptence, courage, forgiveness, trust, peace within, destroying the bondage of fear and becoming free, Love, Love, and more of it. Cecile Tyson's speech towards the end of the movie was uplifting. You have to look past the acting and really here what she is saying. It applies to everyone of us. Maya Angelou, what can I say did what she usually does, herself . They spok...

Second night in a row. This must be heaven. This is the second night in a row that D. and I have gone out. My Mom (mother-in-law) is here for the weekend and D. and I are taking full advantage of it. Gotta go, fill you in later.

We are moving!!!! Here we go! We don't know exactly where we're going we just know that we are going. This is part of what I was trying to control over the past week. Like I said I just let go and let things be. Let the adventure begin.....

Any day now! That's what I've been telling myself to get back to blogging. It's been an upward hill for me. I've been going through some growing pains....again. Oh my gosh! You know, I still haven't got that thing down packed. The thing of I can't be in control of EVERYTHING!!! What do you mean I can't? I amaze myself at how many times I repeat this lesson. Well with that said. I'm free to move on and let go of my struggle to be in control and just be in control of me . The way I respond to things happening in my life, my husband, children, family, and friends. Whew, that's entirely way too much to try to be in control of. Don't you think? I can be in control of my attitude, my love, my mind, my emotions, you know me . Stretching and growing never seems easy when you're going through it, but when things come to a head and you let go of the very thing you have been trying to hold on to and just 'be' a sense of relief sets in. Exhaling ...

This morning the girls and I headed out to their American Girl meeting. Every month at our local bookstore they get to enjoy meeting up with their friends to learn about the "doll" of the month. This month they learned about "Josefina Montoya". A hispanic girl who grew up in New Mexico in 1824. They had so much fun and are already talking about next months meeting. This was Gabby's first time going because she wasn't old enough to go last year. She was so excited last night she told me she didn't sleep well. Yeah Gabby!!! I stayed with them in the beginning and left after we sung the American Girl Anthem. I found my spot next to the window, sipped on one of my favorite drinks, honey vanilla latte, and finished reading my book, Who Moved My Cheese (a must read). It's about four characters that deals with chage differently, in life and in work. It was very interesting to see which one I related with. It's a short book and easy to read. I started re...

We've had some beautiful weather lately and the kids have enjoyed every minute of it. I remember as a kid I used to love playing outside. I was a little 'tomboy', that's what I was called. I used to climb tree's and fences. I would play basketball, touch football because growing up in Brooklyn we didn't have much grass to play in. I used to love racing. We would do relay racing one on one racing and some how I would always win or be one of the best. It's funny, that's how I like to look at my life today. Win or be one of the best in everything I do. With so much to do I've been wondering lately how can I be the best at it all. How can I always win. Today however I realized that I can't alway win and be the best. I realized that I can just be my best. Mothering-Absolutely the most rewarding job there is, although I may not see those rewards until years and years and years later. For now I at times feel unappreciated and even over-looked. Ye...